In all my home/school struggles this fall I have just felt off. I haven't been able to put my finger on it... just off. Finally talking to one of my best friends helped me see what was going on. I was sharing with her my frustration and then this moment of watching the Duggar Family and Michelle saying something along the lines of how kids can learn anything the Lord puts on their hearts to learn. That it's never too late. But also their goal is to build wisdom first and add knowledge to that. I watched and thought, "Hey! That's what we always said!" but that's not what we've been focusing on lately. I have so many friends with kids in special classes or doing special activities or trips and it's almost like a homeschool peer pressure to keep up. However, I really know that as of now I don't feel the Lord leading us to use any outside classes for our kids. So I've been rummaging through curriculums and schedules and discipline ideas all to find the answers to the challenges/pressures I feel while never being able to settle that feeling of being "off". As I was going on and on to this friend she stopped my rant and hit the nail on the head. She said, "Tami, maybe that's what God is trying to show you. He never called you to this for academic reasons (not that that's not important) but for heart reasons. For character. Really when you get down to it, it doesn't matter which curriculum you use. Any of them will do to teach diligence and self-control and obedience if that's where you FOCUS lies." I let out a huge breath and felt like suddenly I figured out my issue! I think it was like a catch in my Spirit as I was trying to find answers in all the wrong places! My goal is to know HIM more and for my children to love and know HIM more! Yes, I want them to "know" math but not more than I want them to know Him! If they could never add... well, can't say I'd be super comfortable with that BUT that is not my top goal!! Somehow as we've hit this new season my focus got very caught up on acadmics and accomplishments and records and grades and and and. I'm sure a lot of that has to do with high school being so close for Carter. AND it's not bad to reevaluate or look for better fits but when you're looking without The Lord...you're looking in vain. I think we all know this but for me I needed a reminder. So here's YOUR reminder from me! What solutions are you looking for in life with your work, spouse or children? Are you looking to programs or advice from other people and forgetting to look to The Creator?? I know sometimes it's hard to hear Him! Sometimes it's hard to trust. Sometimes you can hear and trust but lack confidence in YOUR decisions, constantly asking yourself if you're sure you heard right! But seeking the Lord first is where the promise lies...
Matthew 6:33
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
So I will seek Him and I will trust Him to add unto us all that we need...
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